Tattoos

Daar is 'n hele paar goedjies wat ek nie in my laaste blog post genoem het nie.

Die naweek na Minke se geboorte het ek en Will besluit om 'n bietjie weg te gaan, moes net wegkom van alles en als. Ons is toe Jeffreysbaai toe vir 'n paar dae (ons was ook in 2009 daar op ons wittebrood), ons besluit toe om elkeen 'n tattoo te kry in memory van ons engel-kindjie. Dit was baie special. Vir maande lank probeer ons nou al 'n design find vir 'n "couples tattoo", maar nooit het ons gedink dat die afsterwe van ons kind dit sou laat gebeur nie.

Oppad na Jeffreys luister ons musiek, en die volgende oomblik kom "Verstaan mekaar" op, en dit was so randon, want hier is ons oppad na ons "honeymoon destination" en hier speel die liedjie waarop ons die dansbaan ge-open het by ons troue.

So gepraat van liedjies, daar is 'n liedjie wat baie na aan my hart lê op die oomblik, en ek huil myself half dood elke keer as ek dit luister, dit word gesing deur Band Perry; if I die young...

"If I Die Young"

If I die young, bury me in satin Lay me down on a bed of roses Sink me in a river at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song Uh oh, uh oh Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh, And life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby The sharp knife of a short life, oh well I've had just enough time If I die young, bury me in satin Lay me down on a bed of roses Sink me in the river at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song The sharp knife of a short life, oh well I've had just enough time And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger, I've never known the lovin' of a man But it sure felt nice when he was holdin' my hand, There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever, Who would have thought forever could be severed by... ...the sharp knife of a short life, oh well? I've had just enough time So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls What I never did is done A penny for my thoughts, oh, no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar They're worth so much more after I'm a goner And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin' Funny when you're dead how people start listenin' If I die young, bury me in satin Lay me down on a bed of roses Sink me in the river at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song Uh oh (uh, oh) The ballad of a dove (uh, oh) Go with peace and love Gather up your tears, kee

p 'em in your pocket Save 'em for a time when you're really gonna need 'em, oh The sharp knife of a short life, oh well I've had just enough time So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls.

Mans is mos maar anders as ons vrouens, hulle krop mos emosies in. Een ding wat ek verseker kan sê is dat Will 'n fantastiese pappa sou wees, en ek hoop regtig dat die Here ons nog eendag die voorreg sal gee om ouers te wees, hy staan regtig so mooi by my deur als. Wat ook vir my baie erg was is dat my borste propvol melf was maar het nie my kind gehad om dit leeg te maak nie, my borste was koel-rond geswel vir omtrent 'n week. Ek het op koolblare en pyn pille gelewe! Dit was regtig baie erg vir my.

Vriende ek sluit vandag af, my hart nog so seer soos elke dag, dit raak nie beter nie, sal ook nooit nie.

Jorika